JeSuS RoX mY LifE

2005-03-14T09:15:00.000-08:00

hihi... long time no blog le.... haha.. ok, i am blogging now. feel so bz nowadays. cos i got one thick stack of hw to do. i rather go back school. okayz... nbm, i now v hardworking le. so no need to worry about it so much. aaiyo, so proud ah, praising myself on a blog.. haha. anyway, ytd went to watch princess on ice. very nice show! really nice lorx... heex. i wanna go watch with my family. then can buy lotsa goodies without using my money. _______dreaming______ erm, nothing much happen. but i love the testimony of the brother whom shared testimony in svc on 12th mar. very impactful. cant wait... niwae, got to do hw now le... sae bb to the slacky himyi and hallo to the hardworking himyi... aiyah, praising my self in the blog againe.... dotdotdot. i help those who are reading this blog to do this kind of reaction--> -_-" haha

2005-03-14T04:51:00.000-08:00

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2005-03-08T15:01:00.000-08:00

let me recall... wads happening this few days? well, not much. no homework also. this weeks time table is messed up. cant do much things too. happy with my new calm heart. glad that it had settled down. i rejoice. school was same. but getting bolder now. got back result slip today. frankly speaking, i did not score badly.->compared to others. but i was expecting all b3 ,a1 or a2 for all subjects. excluding Fand N. nbm. contented. but must still work extra hard.
going for cg at philo house later.

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2005-03-03T21:48:00.000-08:00

hey,hey! to day i was in school till 9pm... got math lesson. do math until very shuang. don feel like stopping... if only other subjects also can do until so shuang then good lehz... i would do well le. for now still can cope except for f and n. ya. wan to seek for guidance le... was told about the dress code for the ushering. i don have white polo tee and the kind of shoes that is nt sports shoe. erm, who should i lend it from? haiz....

2005-03-01T22:36:00.000-08:00

tmr is cg... so glad that i am still able to hold this cg at my house... but, only till tmr.. my mum is angry le. i love going pmc now. cos i am free from jobs.. which means i can blog, use friendster and serve the webs without any worries... cos i now senior le mah... must prepare to retire le.. muahaha. after pmc, i went to the study corner to read the bible.. no disturbance. quiet and peaceful. then went for mr Tan's evening classes.. learnt about acids and bases. wow! thank God lehz, tt i understand everything. must be because of sherli's good and strict observation on me... tts y.

i feel stress now le. not becos of sch. but because of the very good marks tt my frenx are achieving. actually, not much about frenx lah, but more on my cousin. he got 13 lor... so clever! i used to compare with him in everything de. height, weight, school work and every other things. cos he older than me by 1 yr old only. haha. but now, i have to compete with him... the 'O' levels next yr. how?... aiya... just do my best lor..

in sch cosmix

2005-02-28T10:34:00.000-08:00

i am now blogging feom school cosmix... and is so cool! the function is great. some function in it, house comp don have de... anyway, i am rushing my Task Analysis and have to hand up tmr le.... aiya. i did not do a single thing. sad case. the math test was easy.... well, to me. at least i can pass happie liao le... haha. after sch going to eat special roti prata. hahaha. so happy... emmm... stomach rumbling... ok., wad else do i wan to say. ya, i am v. glad tt est had been v. open to me. is like wad zinc say, when we see ppl grow spiritually, our heart will be v. happy. is like indescribable.

this song kept resounding in my heart. like God telling us, i can show u the world, shining shimmering splendid, tell me princess now when did u last let ur heart decide. a whole new world, a new fantastic point of view. so let me see this whole new world in u....
it goes something like this. not absolutely true. ya, indeed God has given me a whole new world. i am happy and glad.

aiyah...

2005-02-24T23:02:00.000-08:00

i noe i long time did not update... but ii really bz... i cant be like those who say want to sacrifice slp jiu sacrifice slp. cos this would only land me in hospital...

feel so sick. feel so really tired out. but i was reminded constantly. i was encouraged constantly . thanx.

F and N totally cheated my feelings for it. practically wasted my 2hrs and now it had gone to waste. fine.wads done is done.

ok... really dropping dead now. gonna slump into my comfy bed and start another test/hw filled day again tmr.. buaix peeps...

happy and tired? can it be together?

2005-02-20T19:03:00.001-08:00

tuition just end. v. tired. but i was awakened by the constant laughing and giggling inside me. this whole post is just laughing. so bear with me.

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ok. satisfied le. haha. how much more do i wan to crap man. i am like some insane woman who is going to laugh my heads off anytime. anyway, just a car only. do i need to get crazy? stoopid me. enough of my nonsense.

end le. bb. ahahahahahahahahahah. hahahahahahaha. okok. i noe. i think i should stop. or else the next place i am going is institute of mental health le.

happy and tired? can it be together?

2005-02-20T19:03:00.000-08:00

changes are coming again

2005-02-20T00:49:00.000-08:00

when i went to svc... i was bombarded by changes and more changes. is this time of year the time of restructuring??? haha... ok, lame. svc time change. now is 12 to 2. usher team also changed. pmc teacher also change. i don like the new teacher. luckily i am leaving by end march.

ok... so tts abt all. ohhhhh! ok... flag day. went to meet sara and jq. was abt to give up when i think tt i have to do my best in evrything. to show a gd eg. to be a gd testimonial. and not do well just because is not church activities.

oh.. guorong also told me abt a secret? or... is it a secret? annyway. is just a shock news. and i find it unbelievable. went to tell leader abt this. they also got a shock of their life. i'm sure something is goin to be done... bt i donno wad... nbm... let the tall tall leaders think abt it.

lotsa things coming up.

2005-02-16T22:46:00.000-08:00

i have lots of things to do. school work is piling up and i am getting a little inconsistent. i need more discipline. oh no! trust God really. i am desperate for God. went for assembly today and watched the 911 show. something struck me. and i thank him for evrything tt he had done... end with a word of advice. if u noe u are wrong, then change lah. u sit there and wait for death izzit? AHH! i have nth else to say except tt u should change. even more so when u urself noes it. comeon lah! ok... off to memorise lines and typing scripts....... and to show off a bit, i bit my own target... i had sat there quietly and do homework for 3hrs... not going elsewhere at all and not distracted at all... surprise rite? i also surprise lehz... had spent a really good valentine with God.

4n3(2005)????nono. 2e4(2003)??? yes!

2005-02-12T21:01:00.000-08:00

went to svc and after tt rush to anna's hse. gambled with 10 cents. i no lose no win. stayed from 5pm to 7.30. had a great steamboat at her hse. her mum is so good.she don mind her hse dirty and messy. thank u. oh ya, i 4got to thank her be4 i leave her hse. ok nbm.

she haven change. still tt kind of behaviour..... kind of feel sad for her. esp when i jus had the bgr teaching frm ps jeff . hope she will change. her life will really be in a bad shape if she continues like this. guess she is using the wrong way to get love. aiya... nth to say.

we chatted and think tt we should have a 2e4 gathering at sentosa 1 day. be4 my frenx graduate. i wan to gather with them. kinda miss them. is quite dispersed now. but our heart still thinking of 2e4 constantly. no matter wad class we are in. i think is all becos of ms wong. tts y we are tt united. 2e4 rox man! cool! see syarhan and all the clowns?? haha. bring joy and laughter . OMG! so nice... ok, shall nt continue to think le. will get a bit emotional if i cont'd.

i noe i am in 4n3 now. i have made good frenx. bt i still cant adapt to the environment. fren i will miz u. bt i am also going to strive in tis class. tmr mus use whole day to do hw le. buaiz!

blogskin juz changed

2005-02-09T23:58:00.000-08:00

i just could not get the links abd i donno y. i cant find the original one. so guess i could no do anything. if not satisfied with this, i don mind amelia helpin me to find a better blogskin. i am just totally nerd abt how to handle a blog.. duh, i only noe how to update. i don even noe how to add links. is like there is e persons name but it cant be linked to their blog... must be my problem. donno how to handle jiu shi ze yang de. those who can help me improve, then help me. i wont be angry de. oh ya. i don even noe where to get the tagbox. need to buck up on my comp skills le. is like getting rusty. brain cells are wated. esp in sch.

gonna grow fat le.

2005-02-09T21:08:00.000-08:00

hey! cny is just the 1st day and i guess i am already getting fat le. guess i will be fatter by 5 kg. die! fat liao le. must jian fei. i need to achieve __ kg(cannot disclose, secret lehz) by, erm... march? yes , i believe can de. whahahaha.

yes! i go 1st day of cny and i got _ _ _ dollars le! enough to give my church camp money le. so happy! now, just have to save money for cbf and yes! i will be over the moon le!

i wanna thank the leaders in the church tt have constantly reminded me the main purpose of cny. now i have make it. a fulfilling time spent together during cny. at my mother's side grandma, we talked a lot and joke a lot. really thanx to yan hang. really talked a lot of crap. but at least got create atmosphere. yan bing also changed a lot..

can i end with this?---> i wan to jian fei. wo bu yao bian pang. hao le, wo yao qu pao bu le. zai jian! happy chinese new year to everybody!!

bon voyage

2005-02-06T22:55:00.000-08:00

today, something stoopid happened. and i don wanna say the whole story. is very draggy and lame.

360 degrees change of topic. my cousin went to korea today. it is obvious tt they would enjoy themselves there. envious them cos they no need to go sch.. GL can skip the whole week of lessons. and mind u, he is in JC. and apprently, WY actually wont be going school too. i wan to go aust and korea. but my mother and uncle planning to go Las vegas->practically becos it is their ideal place. duh??? go there gamble mehz. just see beautiful lights only mah.i wan muchmuch more of a serene place.

now, not worrying but wondering. i haven touch my geog and eng hw. i 4got totally abt it. hope tt teacher will be gracious. will i be scolded?

yeah! i am going to celebrate hui yee's bday. she is in for a surprise. oh i also going to pay her a visit during cny. long time did not see her le. must stay guai ok? oh! i am also going fred's hse. why?-> cos his mum v good de. super gd. and i haven seen him for long. no temptations! don worry. 1 of my fren is coming with me too.

celebrated joe's bday

2005-02-06T06:25:00.000-08:00

ytd was really fun. the svc programmes ran smoothly with all the ushers handling it well. yes. really had a fun time yesterday. but who donno? every sat is always a great day. really wan to thank God for meiting for preparing joe's b'day, and also bought the cake. the secret celebration was supposed to get along well....... till joe went into the room and saw everything. AIYA.... SIGH... the surprise went down the drain. however, still think tt the party was sill quite nice. while praying for joe, marcus practically hugged him. the sight was really funny.hahaha!

oh... we(north) got ang baos from pris. so... now i got 2 ang bao le. one frm mr tan.one from pris. hee hee. had meeting wif zinc. learnt tt it is no use to worry and trouble cos its just a waste of time and waste our brain cells. waste of time also. actually, this thing everybody also noes. but, y ppl still worry? i wan to trust in God and let him control everything. its of no use if we trouble abt everything but don wan to do anything to it. this teaching really impacted me a lot. zinc... u have thought a great teaching!.

karen told me abt her. i was abt to get troubled abt it. but i remembered zinc's teaching. put it into God's hand. pray, pray, pray.
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i am blogging

2005-02-04T23:54:00.000-08:00

ok, somebody told me tt i did not update blog. so i decided to update now.

i had went to esther's house for cg and shp. Had quite a laughter there. karen had gone completely mad. she practically laughed non-stop. then we had a series of games. i enjoyed myself. i also chit chatted with esther's mum... erm, get to noe esther more. then i went to huili's hse. very sweaty but still lie on her bed. haha. hope she don mind lor. she shepherded me... well, guess tts abt all tt happened. oh, we had sharing. i love sharing.

in school, mr tan came into e class and scold us. then in the afternoon, he came into our class and apologised tt his tone was too harsh... have u ever seen such a good teacher? oh, he gave us ang baos with sweets and choco. gave us oranges too! ohhhh! early cny. haha.:) gal... don be jealous ok?->u noe who i mean. i am blessed to have him as our form teacher mah. he also gave monthly birthday presents. january babies got keychain tt cost 3.50 each. good rite? wonder wad will i get for the month of sept. heehee...

yesh!

2005-02-01T23:15:00.000-08:00

ok. i admit i had fun today in sch. despite of all the test and unhappy happenings tt happened in cca. but..., u noe, is a sense of satisfaction. tis kind of feeling just dawned upon me. and i feel tt i have been slacking for the past donno how many years. i just felt tt i have used my time fully in school.

learned lots of stuff on F AND N. is a new subject for me and i hope i can cope. today was the 1st try out test paper. i can say tt it is tough. i cant imagine how my followinf F AND N paper is going to score.

during cca, well, summary is tt leaders cant control temper. juniors not cooperative, don wan to do any work.->donno hw lucky they were actually. a lot of .... .... words starts. ok, they have attitude prob and we donno how to make them realise their mistakes. erm, lots and lots of grumbles.

(he is so caring sia...eg)careful when u cross the road, when u go outside class must be careful cos is at nite le. ok, very caring rite? haha:) could sense fatherly love in him. how i wish he can be my father. oops., did i say something wrong/stoopid/lame? haha anyway, he's a great guy. not selfish also-> ppl centred.

MUZ SCORE EXTRA WELL FOR MY TESTS/EXAMS!!! CANNOT DISAPPOINT ALL THE TEACHERS/FRENZ AND EVRYBODY IN THE WORLD WHO SHOWED 1001 CARE AND CONCERN ON ME.
school->miss wong, mr tan and miss ku
church->cg ppl and leaders
frenx-> zalina and ming ye. especially hui yee

*hui yee... i miss u and i wanna meet u up. hope one day i will be extremely free so tt we can go out together for the whole day. heehee;)

ermmmmmz......... words?

2005-01-30T12:20:00.000-08:00

1)remove the rock from ur shoe rather than learn to limp comfortably.
2)every passing second is a chance to turn ur life ard.
3)there is no mistake so great as the mistake of not going on.
4)dont call it a mistake. call it a education.
5)everything tt irritates us abt others can lead to an understanding of ourselves.
6)learn to laugh at ur troubles and u will not run out of things to laugh at.
7)stop whining, start enjoying. and when u look back in the past, make sure u are smiling.
8)until further notice, celebrate everything
9)u cant have a better tmr if u are thinking abt yesterday all the time.
10)alws look at wad u have and not look at wad u have lost.
11)no matter how far u have gone on a wrong road, turn back.
12)wad is defeat?->nothing, but the first step to something better.
13) failure is never final and success is never ending
14)one who lack courage to start has already finished.
15)the secret of getting ahead is to get started.
16)victory will go to the one who never quit.
17)noeing is not enough, we muz apply.willing is not enough, we muz do it.
18)finish everyday and be done with it.u have done wad u could. if some blunders and absurdities have crept in, forget them as soon as u can. tmr is a new day and u shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered of ur old nonsense.
19)be4 thinking of keeping a wallet u have found, think of how u would feel if some1 else finds ur wallet and keeps it.
20)ur mind can only hold 1 thought at a time. make it a positive and constructive one.
21)no one can make u inferior without ur consent.
22)in 3 words i can sum up evrything in life: it goes on.
23)we cannot tell wad may happen to us in the strange medly of life. but we can decide wadss happen s to us, how we can take it, wad we do with it- and tt is wad really counts in the end.
24) holding on to anger is like gasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at some one else.u are the one who gets burned.
25)for every 60 seconds of anger, u lose one minute on happiness.
26)he tt is good in making excuses is good in nothing else.
27)failure doesnt mean that u are a failure. it just means that u have not succeeded yet.
28)it takes less time to do a thing rite than to explain why u did it wrong.
29)it has been my observation that most ppl get ahead when others are wasting their time.
30)for every one person tt says u can, there will be 999 ppl who says u cant. don be discouraged by the others. but be inspired by the one.

desiree signing off le...

finally back.

2005-01-29T23:15:00.000-08:00

my comp is down with virus for the past 4 days.
i had came back from svc and it was great. the music is nice. the drums were like so deafening.liked the piano the best cos is like so nice. esp e guy who stand at e centre played realli well. any way all children of God did well. thank God for them. oh ya, the piano tune is so nice lor. esp the starting. so saddening sia. makes me recall. ok, tt's 1 thing i have to improve on-> move on in life. don look back.
went for udmm and had been informed and updated of some stuffs. also did a planning for next week cg. harry told me to discuss abt usher dress with yong le. but well, i apparently did not. cos was having meeting. anyway, he did it for me le. so, guess its all rite bah. ok, CLM was really fun with the hope Brisbane ppl joining us. sure noe tt they had a fun time in s'pore. shirley's teaching was fast but i had learnt and found out so much more about myself.oh gosh, i really have lots to improve in life.something great is going to happen on the 5th of march. something tt will change evrything. i pray tt i can adapt to it lehz... frankly speaking, i quite worried. but is something tt we are to rejoice abt. zinc met us up after tt. talked lots a stuff. evngelism, SOW, new B.
today is so so nice. got lots of learning and noe soso much abt myself le.

back frm malaysia....

2005-01-23T11:06:00.000-08:00

went to malaysia on fri and sat. well, had fun in kota tinggi. enjoying the waterfall and the nice scenery. then went to desaru. the waves are nice and ya, we would never find such a place in singapore. went to KL in the late afternoon. stayed in the "destiny" hotel. went to the indoor theme park and a shopping centre(just gazing, not buying). only when we go malaysia de chinatown then we buy lotsa stuff. cos is cheap. overall, my dad had commited lots of road crimes. more than 20. and get lost in evry turn tt we make during the journey. 1/4 of the time we were playing and enjoying. 3/4 spent on the car. is like 12 hrs playing and 36 hrs on the car. can be considered a fruitful and un fruitful period of time.

while travelling: learnt lots about malaysia. asked my father lots of questions abt how the govt take care of such a big land ... etc. realised tt malaysia did not fully utilise evrything. well, wad can we do? and also reflected on my life. the areas tt i need to grow much more(spiritually)and how i can improve in showing the rite lifestyle to others in school. wel, tot of lot of ather things. ok, frm 2-4 on sat, i am on the car, when i should be in church, worshipping God.

galz, sure u have enjoyed the svc. (saying the obvious). so glad tt stella and delfin came for this ESS. i pray for converts in the emotions 2. pray tt yan ting will also come this sat. don wan her to miss out the fun. pray tt everything will go on smoothly. pray for responsive ppl.

sick....

2005-01-20T10:43:00.000-08:00

u would have realised tt i have not been updating for.. ard 4 dayys. aiya.. i am sick. got sore throat and flu. is like never curing. didn't go to school, cos still feel very weak.

guess i am too stressed up in a weeks activity/ praying tt i will get well. don wan to miss the trip to desaru ad also the svc on sat. oh, i must be cured by today. cos need to do a good confirmation today. for the ESS tt is coming up.

was very touched when i see north f blog. so much miracles had happened. God has realli shown himself in our life.

prayer points:
->do well in studies
->faster let me noe my class.(f and n or art)
->my fren will get well from the terrible headache & vomiting
->ESS will be filled with north ppl.

tired... wan to slp again le...

a long, yet fruitful day

2005-01-16T23:00:00.000-08:00

today i went to eat at 9 am. then to my nanny's house at yishun. i miss my nanny. really, wan her to look after me again... rewind time, haha! the baby very cute. he love the hp sooo much. i love him. okay... i realised tt i love babies alot...

went to sherli's house for tuition... learnt math today. truly blessed by her. cooked me maggi mee. so nice. filled my empty stomach. erm, 1/3 filled stomach, cos i ate oreo be4 tt. then actually wan to stay at her hse till 6. but realised i am stoning there. so decided to go shopping instead.

met huili at woodlands... go esther's hse for some reason. ya. her hse is very nice. i fall in love with tt place. cos is my ideal hse design. the 1st thought i have was tt i wan to go her hse more often. so nice so nice... donno use wad other words to discribe. enjoyed myself. happie!

all in all, i am very very tired. but i think it was quite a fruitful day. ya, i have to say something, the sun set is very nice. i can see it frm woodlands.if the buildings are replaced by sea/ocean and hills. then it will be perrrrrrfecccct!.

nonono...

2005-01-15T22:50:00.000-08:00

nonono... i am getting fat liao. haha:) is like i am eating lot and lots and lotsa stuff. worst still, not exercising. aiya. cannot lah. must slim down.

oh, zinc... i wan to go princess classics.

oh ya...sher li remimded me something. which caused me not going to sleep today.y u remimd me? see....now i have to do hw le. ok... sian.

read something, cause me to wonder. saw something, caused me to wonder too. i wan u all to be saved. without God in ur life,u will be attacked by devil's ideas. pls. think be4 act. think be4 u write.

sow day

2005-01-14T23:41:00.000-08:00

was very tired today. went out from morning 7am-12.30 for sch. then 2pm went to meet cg ppl for SOW on contacts. they are all very pro active ppl.now i noe y ame and car were so happy tt they get to noe them. reached home only at 8pm.

was shocked by one thing-> we are short of one subject..!!! u tell me lah. wad am i suppose to do? wad am i supposed to study aand how am i going to start??? ok. fine, throw me to other subjects. i don wanna care anymore. really. i am sick and tired of all these worries. just let me study wad i 'have'and 'must' study.

oh ya, shared lame jokes in the burger king. ok... considered long time ago jokes le. yup. must accumulate(iz tis hw i spell?) everyhting and bring life to the cg.

told xuan fang tt i would go her party.

sorry ppl, but wad exactly is hands off policy? accidentally touch each other how? when we play some games in class rooms which requires beating on one another's hand as punishments how? playing of co-operative games that requires team work with opp. genders how?
erm, just wan to get things clear. yup! yup! so don tink too much.

pray constantly for the 2 responsive contacts 'baby' and 'pei qi'. must come down and join us. don wan them to miss the fun. and also esther that her heart will not be hardened. and that she will be able to come down for svc.

nothing much...

2005-01-12T21:50:00.000-08:00

cg was fun, ame and jog stayed at my hse till 6.30pm.just finish my math hw. goin to do my chem and eng hw after i blog. the thought of me going to cca tmr makes me very sad...had lots of good laugh in class.

close ur eyes and think of some one u love->jesus
think of wad he/she is doing
wad he/she is talkin.
*does he or she show respect?->give me freedom to choose, does not force me to do something i don like.
*does he/she show empathy?->understands how i feel, listens to me when i am happy or sad.
*is he/she accepting?->accepts me for who i am. does not force me to be some1 i am not.
*is he/she caring?->says comforting words. bless everybody.
is he/she honest?->wont lie to me. alws keeps his promise.

the above stated could help check whether u are in a healthy relationship or not. it is for everybody(relatives,frenz,family, girl fren or boy fren. not only for christians only)

i have lots to sae. but donno where to start, so blog till here... yup.

sadd :'(

2005-01-11T19:44:00.000-08:00

ok... today also same lor. skip cca. just no mood todae. go there also waste my time. i already wasted 3hrs in F and N.

chinese period: JQ is closer to the exp(04) ppl. happie for u!face red today during chi period. JQ and terence saw. JQ noe the reason y.

eng period: my eng just sux. cant get over it sia. is like tremendous drop.

FandN period: felt very the left out. y not i just study 2 yrs of express? isnt it better than now? techers ask us to choose any subject(art, FandN, DandT). then now they say Fand N fully occupied. wad do they mean by tt? i have no flair in art and DandT at all lor. if exp students all being left on the shelf, then y not...? y not..? y not? simply donno wad to sae. okay, God has his best plans in his sight. just leave it to God.have to work doubly hard. esp Fand N. missed 1 yr of lessons and i have to learn it all in 7 months.

*a tremendous change in life. let me adapt. let me strive.

starting to get stress

2005-01-10T21:32:00.000-08:00

start to stress liao. very tough. donno how to do. and chinese teacher also donno wad she teaching.ss worksheet did not specify wad to write for the answer. english compo. flung completely. sentence structure is wrong. grammar and tenses is wrong. worse still, JQ and i wrote the same topic. but she scored best in our class. unfair rite? erm, but i noe my weak areas. so no use complaining all these 1001 things. oh, 4got to bring my files, bible and mth txt book today. but thank God terence got bring the txtbook. so lend from him. it seems like i everyday no hmwk. but actually is be cos i finished it in class. so good rite? in class i got motivation. i noe at home, i surely lose discipline de. today will be studying ss sec3 chpt 7. must get a better knowledge 1st.ya, and still trying very hard to understand wad my ss worksheet is trying to say. if i cant figure out. then i guess i no need to do tt ss hmwk le.

celebrated reena's b'day

2005-01-09T23:12:00.000-08:00

went to sherli's hse for a 3hr tuition. learnt lots of stuffs on chemistry. oh, i have finished learning the 3 chapters of the chem. which is metals, salts, acids and bases. think i can catch up in class during chem lesson le. sherli also suggested to have a 4 hr tuition in the next lesson. ok, looks like i have to prepare myself for a straining tuition programme le. oh! she also found out my weak points. so.... memorise,memorise and more memorising. cant imagine le. but still have to go. for my school's sake. for my results sake. i am not going to shuffle away my academic studies. i wan to be a all rounder.

went to grandma's hse again lor.. boring, but no choice lehz. is a routin. and we have to go. celebrated reena's b day.she's cute!!! i loveeee her. haha:)and spent a boring day at grandma hse lor. did nothing much, really. the adults were preoccupied by their mahjong. aiya, is common. children are forsaked when they start this mahjong.

thanx shepherds and ex shepherds! fiona for teaching me and letting me noe the fundamentals of evrything in church. and also 5W1H of jesus. sherli for ur care and concern. always travelling all the way down to north area to shepherd us. ollie for encouraging me when i am down. esp tt period of time.huili for doing her best in planning the weeks' activity ahead of us. and alws having new ideas and plans for our new cg. all of u have made a impact in my lives!

sorry... for not being influenced of wearing fancy stuffs. like dress or skirts.jus wanna be my normal self. for not dolling myself up and for alws looking plain and normal only.

ok.. tts all!

svc day

2005-01-08T10:21:00.000-08:00

yeah! today went to church earlier cos got ushering. ya. so is the 1st time since i am in ushering tt none of the leaders have reached. cos they have teir own activities. so is sort of the whole usher team took initiative to lead the be4 PM activities. yup! and there is a new usher in our usher team. her name is Grace. yup! usher team 2 welcums u!!! haha! hope u enjoy urself and cont'd to serve God whole heartedly.well, everything runs smoothly in the svc. and dennis also thought me something not to do during tt time of the svc. thanx ya?

had a north A and F elite meet. had a powerful worship lead by ollie. and also a teaching thought by zinc. when we were doing the stats, found out that we were one moving step by step to our goals. yes. God u muz help us. esp tt 2 ESS is coming up.

on the way home. finish reading the geography txtbook given by sher li.on the chapter of tourism. and i finished reading my geog school txt book on tourism at home alrd. so is like read 2 times on the chapter 'tourism'. got twice the knowledge.

prayer walk today.

2005-01-07T17:46:00.000-08:00

okay.. lets talk abt the prayer walk today. went to woodlands at 1.30 pm. met up with huili and ame. think they just ended shepherding or something.. today, got to noe the schools we are pioneering better. have so much 'shou huo'. cant wait for the souls to be saved. ya. at this park called vista park, we had so much visualisations. imagine with me:hold cg over there. sitting on those big rocks. having great wind. not much noise. quite peaceful. hold matthew event there. can bbq. can play the playground. can go crazy with everybody. everything is so unique. can suggest playing treasure hunt. at the structure of pokka cards, hold a mini performance. this event can combine with north E. so is for all far north ppl. can have far north prize giving day. got a mini stage for us to stand on. summarise:the whole place is cool, big, peaceful. just an ideal place for all our organised activities.

school today was good. prayer works. ytd prayed tt the distraction will get out of my sight. and guess wad.() did not come to school today. oh, terence suggested to us tt we should read bible during our thinking time. a good and meaningful idea. helped each other in math again. my card of verses in the paper tt i wrote had caught mr jason tan's attention. so good. donno y also.

today grace gave me the money liao. yeah! richer by $15 . now every dollar counts. cos i have to save up for CBF, church camp and so many other activities tt is going to happen in Hope of God.

i have no idea y she have to keep on saying they are going to lose the 2004 express student. we are actually the same standard as them lor. so stupid. must have confidence hor. (if tt person noe hu she is). my eng damn sux. it is so terrible tt i have to start from the very basics. like grammer and sentence structure. when will my eng improve? haiz... so long liao le.

1st cg of the year

2005-01-06T19:18:00.000-08:00

schooling in canberra sec is sooo routine. but juz have to go to school. got to study and everything lor. the class is starting to open up le. starts to talk to other ppl like xin ling and the others. besides those seating in the group. there is more fellowship between us, the class mates. talked more also.

one thing that i admire about this class is tt we noe when to be talkative and rebellious and when to keep quiet and attentive.

a round of intro to the ppl in this grp.
JQ-->my best fren in this class... erm, nope, in this school.
berdine-->alws offering sweets to us in class. thank u. :)
sara-->comes to school at around e same time as me. befriend last yr when sch is ending, becos of the meeting with mr siva.
khatijah-->alws encouraging and cheerful.
terence-->joking ard and sms in class.
just typed all these for the sake of typing.

i am glad tt our grp is bonded through encouragements. work together and help one another. and we dont help reluctantly. so heart warming. cos last yr, it dont happen to me. ppl alws reluctant to help me. aiya... wad's past is past.

i dont deny tt i still miss my class. but i thank God tt i am in this class too! cos i am so much happier and so much diligent in doing God's work and my academic work. thanx to everybody who motivated me along the way

went home with GR, JQ and G. while on the way, i was happie.. laughing away and joking away. was thinking to myself whether i will be influenced by their actions. hope not. my goals in school now is to noe HK better. and also have a better relationship with JL. hope she wont backslide.

pray really hard for the pioneering schools in sembawang and woodlands. dont wanna let them go. hope tt the prayer walk will be a success. pupils be open, are responsive and most imptly, yearns to noe God. another thing, just as i have expected. this horrible, satanic temptation is creeping up onto me againe. in the name of Jesus that it will be wiped out. i wan no distrations from the other block. may this temptation get out of my sight. i might be 'xing bu zai yan' for 1 day? 2 day? but is alright. at least i can continue to concentrate after tt few days.

cg was fun. thiugh i was late for it. but still gained valuable fellowship and lessons from it. hope tt next week cg, all will be able to turn up and have a fruitful cg.

following the time table today.

2005-01-05T19:53:00.000-08:00

oh... today went to sch. following the time table and getting to know all the differen subject teachers. geog teacher is my ex form teacher. die liao lah, donno how to face her lehz.

our exams will come on sept. very fast rite.? have to let God help me in this year's life. going to be a total rush. juggling my studies, ministries and other stuffs in life. first day of formally following the time table, all the teachers ask the exp. students to stay back. given lots of warning not to misbehave. for 3 diff. subjects, 3 diff. teachers. we are like big shots liddat... got very special attention, i hate it!

evax at school after assembly, JQ very good. alws encourage or push me in doing God's work and not to slack. donno y she wanna do so much, but yet chose other paths of road in life.

frenz,cousins, sisters and brothers, and my loved ones who are taking "N" levels or "O" levels. hope tt u can score well. is going to be a fast and rushing yr. lets plan our time well ok? God bless u. this note is for all. not just christians. ya.

love u ppl out there!

a nicer blog, thanx!

2005-01-04T21:53:00.000-08:00

this blog had a great change in it. all thanks to jaime. i think she had a headache cos of me askin too many qns. haha. like being bombarded. anyway, thanx a lot, i also donno y i suddenly so polite..

went to school as usual, have not study in school yet. cos got lotsa stuff happening like tsunami and the class deco. when i came to class, we had class deco, i think our class is really nice lor. as in overall. if see each part of the classroom specifically, the cheetah/leopard (i not sure) is not nice at all lor.. everybody contributed in the classroom and everyhting is nicely done up.ya.
our form teacher, mr jason tan, is like damn generous or should i say damn rich. he just provided all the materials for our class. the curtains, cloth, construction paper, puncture.... the list goes on... he has shown me the giving spirit. i wan to be this giving also. God i wan to improve. not only givin, but other areas. let me be a all rounder. realli and sincerely. pls help me.

ya, then we change our seats and when all the 6 of us settle down in the grp, we were given a task to write our profile, donno wad to write,so all of us took out bible and write down bible verses. tt's the shocking part. this whole group are all christians and all of us bring bible to sch. the next coincidence is tt our aspirations were all to be a full time worker in our church tt we belong to. shocking rite? is really God's plan lor. cos this is really really too much of a coincidence.

after school went home with JQ. saw gary, hui kit and this guy from canberra. donno his name, at SP KFC. ya... tt was when i was on the way for shepherding at Mos. Learned a fruitful lesson of the Grace oriented church. God will bless us with the rite amount. excess blessing will lead us to sin. this is a impt lesson i had learnt.

after that went to zarel's hse. wanted to noe her better and pass her some gifts. hope she can be more opened to us and start to accept us. God u noe our heartz just bless us accordingly.

1st day of school

2005-01-03T19:10:00.000-08:00

Oh my gosh... can i just say that God's plan is really miraculous.! ya, i noe tt God is powerful.God had really shown me tt his plans for me is for me to excel in this particular class. i like this class cos i feel warmth in this class. and most importantly, i wont be distracted easily, as in not sound but some other things.(if u don understand, then nvm).
i was sort of xcited to coming to school. Thus,i lye on mybed and prayed fervently for er... well... everything. my this yr's classmates, my family members, my teachers, my faith in God, my discipline(which is very lan last yr)and also for the one whole list of resolutions that i have set.
As i went to school today, my classmates were well, all very quiet. couldn't stand the quietness in my new class now. yes, i noe being quiet in class is good. cos can concentrate. but when is the tim eto participate then should participate wad... and not being so not enthu abt every activity tt our teachers had planned.
while having recess, was thinking to myself, if only hope of God is made up of one school. that school... WOW! just imagining makes me so excited le.
I now cant wait for the vision to be happening. everyday there will be a 'HOPE' bus driving us to church. so cool rite? haha. :)

a great day...

2005-01-01T23:17:00.000-08:00

well... todae the 1st day riting blog... blur blur de... anyway, was at nexus today at ard 12noon. to celebrate carmen, crystal and harry(ming hon) birthday. meiting prepare most of the stuff. so touching when joe was affirming the 3 birthday babies. esp. carmen... practically be cos i noe wad is going on. the ushers joke throughout the time when we are riting the cards for the 3 of them... erm... tts all now... gtg...